This has become quite apparent to me recently. And not just in that there are different ways to see something, but moreso a realization that the people who are close to me are very likely to have different ways to see things. And it may seem obviously, but the way you see something really depends on where you are.
I can be decisive, and I am always pretty stubborn. And I see things through that lens. I figure out where I see something going, or at least where I want it to go, and I'm set. That's how it's going to work out. I do that with schedules, relationships, everything. But, guess what? Not everyone sees what I do. Not everyone wants the same thing I do. So, what I have decided on oftentimes isn't what ends up being. That's hard for me to deal with.
In realizing this, I am trying to live in the moment as much as possible. Forget projection and planning and live now. Because it isn't worth it to miss out on the now so I can be devastated that my plan didn't work out later. I've known that for a while and have been working on it, and while I certainly do better than I have in the past, I can do better.
Worse is trying to find a balance between now and later. I need to plan some things. I need to figure out my major. I need to plan for summer and submit applications. It's just hard to limit myself.
I feel like this is a complete "duh" kind of post. Sometimes I can be really dense. REALLY dense. And it takes a lot for things to dawn on me.
P.S. - This also applies to time and God. I read a post on Stuff Christians Like that talked about how people try to view time as a healer for our sins. And he poses a thought: maybe God doesn't view time as we do. Maybe it's just like a four year-old who sees all of the past as yesterday and just the past. The length of time between when we last sinned or last did anything doesn't matter. It's the past. What matters is the now. I found it interesting and thought provoking.
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