You see...

...it's not that I'm trying to hold on to something that's already gone, it's that I never actually let it go.

One big ball of confusion.

That describes my understanding of almost all of my life.

Body Clock.

People's bodies are amazing. They really are. But one thing sticking out to me right now is the body's ability to keep track of time, and more importantly, to prepare for certain things based on the schedule it has been given. For instance, if you wake up at 7 every day, your body should get used to it and naturally wake up at 7. That's crazy.

I have a theory. I think our bodies can do the same thing with emotions. For week after week, I went to Kayla's house on Tuesday nights. It was our date night. I would leave around 11, usually after sitting on the porch having a really nice talk. It's when I felt the most connected to her. Over the school year, I would call her on Tuesday nights. Usually starting around 9 or 10 and going to a little after 11. Again, one of the times I felt most connected to her. And now, it's a Tuesday night, shortly past eleven, and I miss her more than I usually do. I think my body is playing out the emotions I've felt on Tuesday nights at 11 over the past year and a half. It's kind of cool and it's kind of odd, but it definitely makes me miss Kayla so much more.

The cost to fill your tank.

People. Whether it takes you $30 or $50 to fill your gas tank, it has nothing to do with your gas mileage. It simply tells you how big your gas tanks it. Gas mileage is the number of miles traveled divided by the number of gallons of gas used. The size of your gas tank may be arbitrarily related to gas mileage in that the manufacturer doesn't want you to have to fill up too often so they will put in a bigger tank if you get bad mileage, but it is not directly or scientifically related to mileage. So stop bragging that it only takes $30 to fill your tank. That means nothing.